The Irony of Nursing After Grad.

I never thought that I will be a victim of my own dreams. I took up BS Nursing after graduating from High school in 2002 equipped with so much love and passion to that course. When I was a kid, I was really amazed by my mothers work, being a Nurse in the health Center in a small town in the south of Davao Del Sur where I grew up and finish my Prep. School until High School. Watching her while she does so many things with the patients who came in for treatments and check-ups makes me love the profession so I decided to be like my mother there and then.

I was so excited when I finally passed the entrance exam of the most prestigious nursing school here in Davao, to think that we are three from my High School classmate who took the exam, our First Honorable mention along with our best in Math classmate, But I was the only one who passed the entrance exam of that College of Nursing.

I am full of hope that it will be easy for me to surpass all the challenges of the Profession that I'm studying and I did when I Graduated Nursing. With so much confidence and motivation, equipped with enough knowledge, I took my first Board Exam in nursing, Although I became agitated by the time I saw the questions in the test paper, i prayed that I will be given wisdom as I answer the Board Exam. With sweats dripping in my palms( surprisingly co'z i don't have palms sweats ) I continue answering with increasing agitation as the day went on. I never though I will cry because of an exam. I really never picture out myself one day that my confidence and hopes will fly away from me in the time that I really need it. I went to San Pedro Church, Cried hard and Pray, and afterwards went hope with so much confusion and later on I realized that I lost my cellphone along the way home.

As the days went on, With my friends and foes confidently awaits for the result after two months, I am at the same time agitatedly and confusingly stayed home, trying to act naturally and hopingly awaits for my final verdict.

I thought I died as I recieved a text that my name is not in the list of passers. I undergo DABDA ( Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression then Acceptance ). I did ask myself, what lacks in me that My friends and foes have that made them pass the Board exam? Is the Board Exam a justification of how well a Nurse can be when they work in the Hospital? Is the exam a concrete proof that it is the best measurement of the Nurse knowledge on Nursing? or it is just a scam that will hinder a person like me who have the passion for nursing to completely fulfill a dream since childhood eventhough I pass the 4 years of combating the Nursing Education.

I don't want to be crying over spilled Milk, I shouldn't be writing this in my blog as well, But I can't help myself co'z my parents spend too much for my studies ( Nursing is so Prestige in price ), My parents spend Thousands in my reviews.

I will be taking my 2nd Board Exam again, trying my "LUCK" again. They say it's all in the LUCK. What can I do? Well, try harder in the reviews, prepare myself for a battle, and hope for the best. Pay thousands again for the review and focus on one career Path. Why I said one career path? Yes, Nursing Graduates can only hope towork in a Hospital these days, that's the Irony again that we are facing aside from PNLE. No Company from other fields will take risk on hiring a Nurse in their company. No versatility, no other options for work, no other functions but only as a nurse in a institute for the sick.